“When my world is falling apart
When there’s no light to break up the dark
That’s when I look at you.
When the waves are flooding the shore
And I can’t find my way home anymore
That’s when I look at you.”
*When I Look at You by Miley Cyrus
As for me, this song is for my Creator.
Thank You for loving me for who I am and for making me feel that I am not alone.
It has been already two months since my latest job ended. After that, I turned my focus on things that I think would satisfy me such as series watching, reading, and writing. I even tried doing random things like video editing, manga reading, online selling, and such. But at the end of the day, no matter how I keep myself busy, anxiety still really strikes.
I know to myself that I am a positive person. As much as possible I do not let any negativity to overcome me. But, this pandemic has a different effect on me — I lost my sleep discipline, eating appetite, leisure interest, and even my smelling and taste senses. No wonder why a lot are undergoing depression during this times.
But God has a great reminder for me during this particular season of my life:
“Cast all your anxieties on Him for He cares for you.” – 1 Peter 5:7
Thinking about my monthly bills and future journey would just lead to worrying, and if it’s just by my own, I could not do anything. Thus, let me surrender everything to You, Father. I know this hidden sun of mine will come its rise after its sunset. Everything will fall into its perfect place. Remind me to trust your timing.
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āIf you get ten small things or even a hundred small things all togetherā¦ it will be enough of a reason for you to keep going!ā ā Futaba Yoshioka
(Japanese anime: 12 episodes; manga: 49 chapters)
Futaba Yoshioka and Kou Tanaka were childhood friends who liked each other. The last words he heard from Futaba was she hates all boys; and then, his sudden disappearance happened.
Years have passed, unexpectedly, while in high school their ways crossed again, but this time, the boy that Futaba liked before does not look the same as what she knew him way back. A mysterious, yet lonely spirit behind his new name Kou Mabuchi is what she sees. By trying to help him escape from the memory of the past the story has its twists and turns.
From being childhood sweethearts, parted ways by time, encountered each other again after a few years; there were change of treatment, sly feelings, chasing scenarios, reach of limitation, and point of regret — Futaba and Kouās love story is just a typical story that you could read or watch. But what made their love story special for me is that how Futaba does not quit showing her positivity towards Kou no matter how painful she frequently feels because of him. Moreover, I felt the emotions the author wanted to convey while learning deeply at the same time. Honestly, I mostly felt pain than flutter between these two along their journey. Giving emphasis about self-authentication and freeing self from pain of the pastās memory is very much rewarding. I just learned a lot from this.
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āPeople yell at me a lot and tell me to act more feminine. But I believe itās best to be the way I am.ā — Misaki Ayuzawa
(Japanese anime: 27 episodes; manga: 85 chapters)
Seika High School which has become a co-ed institution from being a former all-boy school has this student council president named Misaki Ayuzawa. She is aptly nicknamed as the āDemon Presidentā as she is feared and respected by others because of her strict style and excellence both physically and academically. On the other hand, Takumi Usui who is the most popular boy in the campus has found Misakiās secret part-time job as a maid in a cafĆ© while being stellar in the said school. Thus, knowing the secret of hers leads them to get closer.
Upon watching Maid Sama, it gave me the feel that it was my first time watching a romance anime though it was not. The lead charactersā strong personalities on both physical and intellectual aspects, their chemistry, Takumi Usuiās savior image, minor charactersā felt existence, hindrances in their love story, and funny scenes are the things that have made this shoujo interesting and entertaining for me. Thus, it is the very first romance anime that I got really hooked which led me to start reading manga, a thing that I had never tried before.
Ps. It’s just my personal rating, especially that I’m into romance genre.
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1: How’s Tin?
2: She’s already a member of a famous girl group.
1: What about Kris?
2: There, being paid as a freelance writer.
1: And you?
Me: Here, lying on bed, counting the days since the ECQ has started.
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Are you also one of those people who feel stagnant? Are there times also that you compare your achievement to others?
Take heart. Your path may just be different from others. Just believe. Your break will also come.
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